I have been mentally writing this blog for a while now. Trying to find the right words. The right tone. Melancholy & cautious? Happy & jovial? Or just the facts and straight to the point?
I guess I am still trying to figure out how I feel about it. I can feel the tears stinging right now behind my eyes and I feel ashamed and selfish to have those emotions be the strong ones. I want so much to be overjoyed with happiness, but I am a planner, and this was not in our "plan."
We found out about a month ago that I am pregnant with #3. Which was great news. We were surprised, but we laughed and said ok Lord. This must be the right time for this (if there is ever a good time). Then a few weeks after that came the real kicker...TWINS!!!!
Yes. As Brynn keeps telling every Tom, Dick & Harry...there are two babies in my belly! They run in our family and we always knew this was a possibility, but never seriously entertained the idea.
I am overwhelmed and nauseous. Tired and bloated.
This changes everything. Our home search has been kicked into high gear and we have expanded our search to include bigger homes no longer only in the downtown Geneva area :(
As for my business, well, be sure to book your sessions before October ;) and we can still get your holiday cards done in time. No worries for anyone on my baby plans or my 2012 weddings.
I am excited and the idea has been slowly sinking in. I just haven't figured out how this is going to work logistically. I guess I will just never sleep. Ever. Again. What doesn't kill you only makes your stronger, right?
My very best girlfriends and my family have been so wonderfully supportive. I am so thankful for them and Chad as they help me put this in perspective. We're just going to need a bigger boat.
This would explain the scarce blogging lately and the last minute trip to Florida. We may never travel ever again as a family...haha, so we had to fit in one last trip.
Hopefully you will come along for the ride as I go on this next adventure.